Short Story

Should I die because of you ?

In a small village there is nice couple Budi and Rida. They look very chummy, and harmonic in doing something. Wherever Budi goes there must be Rida accompanying and wherever Rida is there must be Budi beside her. Budi is a handsome thin boy with white skin color but he is very talkative. Meanwhile, Rida is the most beautiful girl in her village with strong black hair and sweet smile. Everyone who sees her smile must love her instantly. On one day, Budi looks so confused so he just keeps silent and sit on the stone near the river. He looks like he is still thinking a very serious problem. Obviously, he is thinking about his feeling. He is falling with Rida and admiring her so far. But the problem is he doesn’t have enough bravery to say it directly to her about his feeling. He is very shy being rejected by her. He feels like a looser who is not brave to fight. After he takes long thinking, then finally he decides to try to convey his feeling to Rida whatever the result is. Next day, he goes to Rida’s house and invites her to accompany him to go to somewhere. Budi already prepares everything. He wears blue shirt, long jeans, and uses perfume very much. He looks very tidy on that day. Then they go to a restaurant near the city. While waiting the food and drink are served, they talk each other. Budi thinks that this is a good moment to say what he feels to Rida. He looks very shaky. Much sweat flows on his face. He starts talking. When he tries to say I love you, then finally the waiters come and serve the food and drink. Everything is postponed. Then they start eating and drinking. After finishing, Budi tries to continue his words which are cut by the coming of waiters. He looks more confident now. He holds Rida’s hand smoothly and says that so far he admires her and falls in love with her. Rida gets very shocked till she becomes speechless. Her face is getting redder and redder. She is very confused how to reply Budi’s feeling. Budi is now afraid of whether Rida will accept him become her girlfriend or not. Finally the judgment comes. Rida says that she loves him very much too. She feels very comfortable beside him. But, it doesn’t mean that she will be his girlfriend. She considers him just as a friend. Not more than that. Because she is already in relationship with someone named Trisna. Budi is very shocked. He is very shy. What he is afraid of finally happens. He becomes frustrated. And finally, he decides to finish his life. He directly jumps from the 12^th floor of the restaurant. He commits suicide, and finally Budi dies because of love.

copyright M. Iqbal Maulana